Identity then revelation of purpose
Have you ever felt like you needed to step away from something in order to see it more clearly?
The FAther is jealous for you
It had been building up for a long time. I have been seeking God in a deeper way in the last 2 years. The powder keg, so to speak, exploded after coming back from Carolina Revival on October 6, 2018. I don't know exactly what happened, why, or how. I just know there was an encounter with Yeshua that I desperately needed. I let go of somethings, but I gained something too. I just didn't know exactly what. After a day of pondering of all this, I was given permission to pause. I felt the Spirit, saying, "just stop for a minute," it was a deep unction within me to push pause on any spiritual influences outside of this one thing: devotion. I heard pause from church for a minute, enjoy this season, stop performing, stop striving. Spend time with your family and with Me. That's it.
The power is not actually in the pause, the power is in obedience to Christ.
At the time I had told two different people I would praise dance with them. I'm a woman of my word, even to a fault sometimes. I delayed obedience to this unction of the Spirit to complete these two praise dances and then...I stopped. Like I said in my previous post, I was spending time with family, including Kingdom family outside of church. However during this time, the main attraction was of course Jesus Himself. I knew He was positioning me. That's why, no matter who you think you are, when God tells you to push pause, you push pause brothers and sisters. No matter who gets offended, misunderstands, or turns their back on you.
There is only one place you NEED to be
The True Vine
15 “I am the true vine, and My Father is the vinedresser. 2 Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit He [a]takes away; and every branch that bears fruit He prunes, that it may bear more fruit. 3 You are already clean because of the word which I have spoken to you. 4 Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in Me.
5 “I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing. 6 If anyone does not abide in Me,he is cast out as a branch and is withered; and they gather them and throw them into the fire, and they are burned. 7 If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you,you[b] will ask what you desire, and it shall be done for you. 8 By this My Father is glorified, that you bear much fruit; so you will be My disciples." - Yeshua
John 15 (NKJV)
It's amazing how Christians apply certain concepts we hear in church to our lives, but we don't know what Jesus actually said. For example, church leaders say " you need to be planted at a church." The intention behind the concept is based on good intentions, however, Jesus never said that. He said we needed to be connected to Him. Abide. There are many people committed to a church building that are not committed to Christ in their daily decisions. They are not connected to the Vine. Commitment to attendance is no good if that commitment is not producing an abiding in Christ that leads to deepening roots in Christ; growth. Remember Ephesians 4, church government is designed to cultivate your relationship with Christ not grow the business of church. I don't want to receive a text message every time I miss a church event. I want to receive a text message that makes sure I sought out the secret place that day. That's the kind of accountability that produces abiding believers who walk in consecration and change their world.
I don't want to go off on a rant about religion here. Although, I just might. There are too many church-goers who become fascinated by believers who live a life of consecration, actually love people, and make hard decisions to honor Christ and others behind closed doors. This fascination, is the fruit of dysfunction in the body of Christ. People supplement their lack of authentic Christ-centered devotion by making sure others see them as devoted, kind of like the Pharisees:
“Woe to you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! For you are like whitewashed tombs which indeed appear beautiful outwardly, but inside are full of dead men’s bones and all uncleanness." - Yeshua (Matthew 23:27)
I purposefully want to make a distinction between church-goers and believers. They are not the same. Abiding in Jesus is much more than attending church. I would even dare say modern "church" is a distraction from the family Jesus sought to create. Assembling yourself with other believers is a beautiful thing that adds incredible stability, accountability, and joy. Spiritual authority in your life is most beneficial and you will miss out on a lot without it. However, what is most important, is to cultivate a close enough relationship with Jesus, so that you hear His voice clearly. Especially if you are a leader of any kind including of a household. And sometimes, the seeking to hear His voice, requires you to silence a few others for a season.
But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all things that I said to you.
A couple of months ago, at a monthly gathering called Carolina Revival, I had an amazing face to face encounter with Yeshua that has transformed me. I want to share more about what Christ did for me, than about that revival or place I went. The atmosphere of that revival was a catalyst but Christ did the work.
While at this revival Friday night, standing in the back by the door (standing room only), I was invited to soar above the whole world with my Father and the next day, my Savior cleansed me from the doubt and unbelief that still lingered within me. Somehow in the midst of all of that, I (finally) fully sat down with my King, Bridegroom, Savior, and Defender in THIS life, seeing as I was already seated, in the spirit, in Heaven. Immediately, I felt an inner contentment and rest I hadn’t in so long. I’m not talking about “getting wrecked” or even crying or laughing uncontrollably. I literally just stood there, surrendering and Jesus transformed me.
What Does "Seated" Mean?
You just have to experience it. 🤷🏽♀️ I can tell you it was one of those face to face encounters with the goodness of God. Our Abba is not concerned about our performance, He just wants our hearts. He desires to be with us. Something changes when you actually have an encounter that causes you to become aware of and agree with "on earth as it is in Heaven." I mean for real. It's hard to describe, but once you experience it, you'll know 😁 and so will those around you. The peace and joy of Christ surrounds you and you be like...(psst, see picture below) continuously, not just during that service. I mean it lasts and lasts. Boom! You've been transformed my friend!
I've seen with my own eyes how, when you get into the right atmosphere, where God's presence and glory is so thick, transformation takes place from within, no one needs to lay a hand on you.
Prophesy can be great, but I've often seen it misused; preaching is necessary but not when it's laced with personal agenda. I've seen 100s of alter calls and praying, but no change. Unintentionally, this causes some leaders to demand more of people because they either are unaware of or not sure how to take you deeper into the Glory of God - and it’s this glory that brings the change. Not man's ability.
For me, I was catapulted into freedom at Carolina Revival in SC. I've also experienced breakthrough at other times and places but this was different. What probably would have taken much longer, was expedited. I believe, this is due to of the measure of God's presence in that place. Ironically, it actually has nothing to do with that place, it's all about the right focus. When you gather with believers that are not concerned with how many humans are present, but if that beautiful One is present, lots of exciting things happen! Don't get me wrong, it requires an appropriate response. You can't just show up and expect the "magic" to work. It requires your surrender, your "yes".
I am grateful for my natural and Kingdom family. During this pause, I experienced wonderful fellowships over dinner or coffee. Yeshua was right there with us!! No worship band, or celebrity speakers, or all the bells and whistles, just good old fashion Acts fellowship. I have gotten to see myself, the good and the bad. I'm growing and He is not done with me. Like today while I was reflecting on so much this year, I literally saw in the spirit God laughing at what I considered to be my shameful shortcomings. He inspired me to be the same way, with all that is scary in this world, with those who let you down, etc.. Jesus, is laughing at all of it! Not in a happy kind of way, but in a "this is such a little speck, so why fret" kind of way.
I don't know about next week, I just know that today I want to pursue Him as He is pursuing me. ❤️ Sometimes it takes stepping away from something to appropriately see it for what it is.
If I could share one message it would be this: Jesus has made Himself responsible for YOU. By "you" I mean those of us who walk in Covenant relationship with Yeshua the Messiah. Baptized by water and spirit, He now abides in you and you abide in Him. Once we become children of God it is no longer about our willpower or ability. IT IS NO LONGER ABOUT OUR PERFORMANCE BUT RATHER, OUR INHERITANCE.
Love you, my friends!
Often in Liturgical Dance you find that you use a plethora of dance disciplines. However, I would say the foundation of any dance is ballet and African Dance. So for the past month and for the rest of December I will be taking Ballet Classes twice a week!
I am loving the Ballet Series at The UP Factory here where I live. Our instructor Natasha is amazing! Ballet strengthens you arms, legs, and core. Even muscles in your foot are used extensively (see video at the end).
My point in mentioning this is, I often find in the Liturgical Dance Community that there is a lack of pursuit of excellence. Many settle for inferior expressions of dance out of fear of failure or maybe just outright laziness. I wish to share my passion for worship and dance with as many people as possible. I now have a ministry called HaRuach Worship.
The purpose of this ministry is to help others come into a more intimate and authentic relationship with Yeshua, our King, and Bridegroom. So many people desire peace, love, and a sense of purpose. They can find all those things in Yeshua, but they hardly ever find it correctly in church. There is a lifestyle in Christ where you will rise from glory to glory, guaranteed, but if you settle for warming a pew every Sunday you will miss this.
Blessings, Health, and Peace!
Desiree Cummings is a Licensed Clinical Social Worker, Liturgical Dancer, Fitness Enthusiasts and Foodie that has been impacted by the goodness and love of Jesus. All these things are woven throughout her writings.